The Return Of The Rubberasylum Daily Blog

My Fellow Inmates,

I have sat down for 6+ years...

I have kept all my thoughts to myself.

I can no longer keep my mouth shut...

I promise, I've been doing my best...

However....

Let's talk about the shit that currently befalls us...

Coronavirus.

Ok... Look.

I realize that this issue effects us all. so I have been very careful in discussing this, however at this point, I'm nearing my fill

So lets talk about this.

Coronavirus.

If you listen to the liberals, this is going to kill us

If you listen to the conservatives, the shutting down of our economy is going to kill us.

So who is right?

Who the fuck knows.

We are in unprecedented times, and in our current generations we have never dealt with anything like this.

Our grandparents and great grandparents dealt with Polio and Small pox, but since then there hasn't been a threat that has challenged our world like this....

Tomorrow is Easter...

Let me challenge you to something.

I respect your religion, I do

But. please don't.

Don't join large gatherings, don't go to church

If Jesus is in your heart then does he really expect you to chance your life to honor his?

...And if he does, then really is this the god you should be following?

But hell, what the fuck do I know, I'm a Jew...

Jew...

Lol, today I read a popular tweet that blamed our current moments on the jews...

the eternal scapegoats

Lord, let me tell you about this.

For 40 years the world has reminded me of my bloodlines. I was born different, It didn't matter what I achieved, I wasn't Christian, and lord, even though I couldn't give a fuck about religion the world has taken every opportunity to treat me differently...

Dirty Jew

Christ Killer

Wir Juden...

It's 2020...

I thought this shit was gone, I thought this shit was over.

But no...

This world killed 90% of my family in the 1940's.

Can we be done?

Can us Jews have a pass now in regards to what is wrong with the world?

Can it be someone else's turn?

I'm going to be fair here. It's human to hate. It really is. In order to accept ourselves we as humans must have another to look down on.

Whether its race, or class,or strength such as the bully looking down on the nerd, or whatever

If you hate another you are compensating for hating yourself.

I used to be a student of slurs. I found them fascinating, I studied them in college, and for the most part I can describe to you the histories of some of the most horrific things you can say, and why you say them.

I get why you say it... I get why it makes you feel better...

But is it important at this moment?

This virus doesn't care what race you are

This virus doesn't care what religion you are

This virus doesn't care what your sexuality is

This virus doesn't care whether you are rich or poor

This virus doesn't care your politics

This virus doesn't care if you live or die

We are in unprecedented times. We all have time on our hands we otherwise would not have. We are offered at the moment a chance to grow, a chance to reflect, and a chance to step up for others around us.

Now is our moment.

Gonna grab it?

Or just keep the status quo?

With That, Visiting Time Is Over. What Ever You Do Don't Scream Too Loud As Others Are Trying To Sleep.

 ~Rubberasylum

Suicide is Painless: The Return of Rubberasylum

My Fellow Inmates,

Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say

The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger
Watch it grin

A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are key
Is it to be or not to be
And I replied oh why ask me?

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please
And you can do the same thing if you please

6 years...

Six motherfucking years.

Six years ago i sat down. Six years ago I stopped blogging.

Why?!

Well...

Six years ago I had a full on Nervous Breakdown.

Oh, sweetie I ain't fucking ashamed.

I was, Oh lord was I ever for many many years.

I broke... No, I didn't break; I shattered.

A million fucking pieces.

I couldn't talk about it. How could I?

I'm a well read name in our community. Any part of my story on what happened would be considered drama... would it not?

The reason for my shatter involves some well known names in our communities, about a dozen of them...

...It also includes a lot of drugs and alcohol...

But that's just the entertaining parts of the story.

So why am I finally back? Why after so many years am I finally stepping up? What happened to cause me to break my silence?

Last week happened.

On August 3rd, a friend I had known for 15 years couldn't take his own darkness anymore. He had a nervous breakdown like mine, and just like mine all his friends left. They tried, don't get me wrong, but eventually all of them left. They distanced themselves out of self protection as who of us knows how to handle another who has broken?

His suicide note spoke of the loneliness and the darkness that he could no longer face.

That was a Saturday.

Then came August 7th, Rio... Who I had known for 5+ years... took his own life...

A double gut punch...

And you know what?

It knocked my ass out of coast mode.

Life is short, life is fragile, life is special no matter how much is sucks in its worst moments...

So buckle up buttercups... Asylum is back and Asylum is pissed off.

Warn the motherfuckers of the last 6 years.

Lets shatter the rumors.

Lets tell my story...

With That, Visiting Time Is Over.

What Ever You Do Don't Scream Too Loud As Others Are Trying To Sleep.

 ~Rubberasylum

The Amazing Kink photography of Puppy Stryker

My Fellow Inmates,

I must apologize for my silence yesterday. I got caught up in writing a novel... Yup... more to come on that. But for now, Lets take a look at something truly amazing,,,,

The kink Photography of Puppy Stryker. This time he chose puppy and I as his subjects,,,,

With That, Visiting Time Is Over.

What Ever You Do Don't Scream Too Loud As Others Are Trying To Sleep.

 ~Rubberasylum